Wow, hi everyone! Long time no update!
So, its been forever since I’ve posted anything personal. I think it’s going to take awhile to get used to having a place where I put my thoughts down for the world to read, but there is so much going on right now, that I felt like maybe today was a good day to start sharing!
This is how we get to the subject of today’s post. Change. What is it good for?
I woke up this morning, put on my yoga pants (which by the way are WAY more comfortable than work pants!), and had a really phenomenal home practice! After wards I felt joy! My muscles were happy! My brain was clear and ready for a challenge. I had a cup of coffee while I worked on a class that I’ll teach to my students tomorrow! When I sat down at the computer this afternoon, I realized that I was doing this for me. That complacent 9-5 mentality is slowly starting to dissolve. Not knowing exactly where I might be next week or next month or next year, is something I actually want to hold onto for a bit. CHANGE IS AMAZING!
Two weeks ago I attended a Business of Yoga workshop, which I think I really needed! It got me started on the vast and often overwhelming step of setting goals. It opened my eyes to some of what I need to consider for running my own business. The instructor was there, almost like a therapist, listening to our fears and helping to problem solve. It helped to sit in a room with others who all had similar concerns about where to start and how to be successful. That was my first real moment of clarity. I suddenly had some tools to help me through this.
Jobs are starting to pop up. I had my first real interview for a yoga job last week. It was so much easier than I remember other interviews being. I felt confident talking about myself, my experiences, and my love for this career. This week I had a little “audition” for that same place, I couldn’t sleep the night before, because apparently, that’s what I do when I’m nervous now. Yay me! But…despite my nerves, I was able to teach a class of strangers who were extremely friendly and receptive and honestly, it just felt natural!
Last year at this time, I was two months into my yoga teacher training program, standing in front of a class, being the center of attention and trying to competently instruct with a serious case of dry mouth and a stomach in knots. I questioned whether this was right for me than, I questioned if I was ever going to be able to get past that stage and make this a career. As time grew closer to leaving my comfortable job with its adequate pay, I questioned it again…But here I am. I love teaching. I love being able to help people feel better. I love that it makes me feel better about myself. And THAT is why change is a good thing!
Because being afraid to make a change, and doing it anyway makes you feel good and because if you never try, you’ll never know how absolutely incredibly it can feel!
― Pauline R Kezer